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Concealed weapons on campus? I have been one of those people all my teenage life that thinks the only way to stop gun violence is to allow anyone, who is mentally fit, be allowed to carry heat, and maybe even have it being allowed to be shown in public. This would put an end to mugging/robbery, but also allow people to defend themselves if they are put into a situation where their life is in danger. I believe that if someone in these campus shootings had a gun they could have ended it before if got to the point where it ended. But, I also know that in the case of what happened in Kirkwood, it wouldn't have done a thing, because it happened so quick. Those people are going to commit suicide anyway, so they would try to to take out as many as they could, but it would end with a lot less innocent deaths if someone could kill the person. and end up saving countless lives.

Please, Do not start a fight over this..... It is my idea and it is because I am actually starting to become afraid of going to college over whats been going on lately.

The story that made me think of writing my blog is here.....

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Today 4 girls asked me out and tomorrow's V'day...  Honestly, I am not interested in any of them, and I don't want to hurt their feelings on tomorrow of all days.  I want to skip school, but my dad won't let me.  I am only interested in the girl I have talked about before, and today she said to me she wants to go out, but her dad says she can't until she is 18.  I am willing to wait until then, but I don't know how I can tell the other girls I am not interested, without hurting their feelings...... Ladies out there, Please help me out here.....  

Paradise with everyone back in the St. Louis Metro area.

I am not trying to make you all jealous....even though you may become so ^-^.

Well, that girl does have a crush on me and I found out yesterday.  On Thursday she asked me to get some songs for her and put them on my Ipod and my friend said it most likely was a Crush test.  Turned out it was because after I gave her my Ipod to listen to with the songs on it, we started to talk about our past relationships, and friends just don't do that.  So I now know know that she wants to be more than just friends and most likely be Friday, if not on Monday, we will be going out for sure.  Other than that, I have no news lol.  Just that I'm jealous of all the snow that you all got :P.  If you would please send some down my way, a good foot or so in a box with dry ice shall do just fine, I would be very happy.

Sorry for the lack of updates, I have been really busy since the move.  It's been great so far and I just restarted school yesterday after a whole month off.  And I love the school, way better than O'Fallon Township High School ever could be....and that school was one of the best in Southern IL.  Also, I have another reason why I love the school......I've got the biggest crush I have ever had on a girl in one of my classes, and I am starting to believe she has a crush on me too.  She is a gamer, just like me, and wants to become a veterinarian just like my old girlfriend, who was also a gamer.  Not to mention she strikes a remarkable resemblance to my very first GF, so she's like both of them in one......I don't know, maybe I am going to end up getting the best of both....like it was destiny.  I shall keep everyone update on what happens with us....and most likely it will happen either this week, or next.

I have officially moved in here at Ormond Beach, Florida, and the high temperature was 82 yesterday lol.  I can't wait to go to the beach again and hopefully see some severe weather relatively soon.  As I said earlier, I will keep my eyes on St. Louis, because I still consider the metropolitan area my home.  Have a safe Holiday and be careful on the roads.

I shall update again if something interesting comes up. 

I am moving to Florida on Dec. 21st to start a new life.  I finally succumbed to the ocean's call I guess lol.  I have been getting in fights with my mom and my dad and my mom decided it would be best if I were to move to Florida.  I should have moved in Aug. like I said I wanted too, but I didn't listen to myself.  Anyway, I hope everyone has a good Christmas and a Happy New Year and I shall check in when I move down there. 

P.S.
For those that have followed my accounts on a certain girl, lets just say she became a totally different person than she was when I fell in love with her.  She said some pretty mean things to me, which I don't want to go into, but I have giving up all hope of it working out.  Oh well, there is someone else out there for me I guess.  Have to get ready for bed so talk to you all later.

I haven't written one of this for a bit, so I guess this one is going to tell you all what has been going on in my life.

School started over 4 weeks ago and I love all my classes. I have a couple of friends in them and I have made some new ones, which is good considering this is my last year of high school. I am in Geology 2 and am taking an art and ceramics class along with a College Algebra and Mythology class to get them out of the way for college. Still looking into that college in Mass. for meteorology and I have 2 others, one in Florida and St. Louis University.

Last Tuesday I finally got my license and I had to take everything over again (the written and driving test) because my permit expired....on Labor Day weekend. I ended up getting a 100% on the written and only missed 3 of a possible 36 points on the driving part. If you know me, you probably know I love weather and what do you think I said to my mom right after I got my license? I said," Now I can go storm chase." On Friday I started to pick up my brother from his Junior High and I will be doing that every day of the week now.

My parents are supposed to settle their divorce on Sept. 24th, which should have happened a long time ago. I am still interested in that one girl and still trying my hardest to get this college thing to work out. I'm getting Halo 3 the night it comes out at 12:01 a.m. and I plan to miss two days of school and I guess that is about it. Stay safe everyone and good luck over the next few weeks.

I decided not to move down to Florida because it is my last year of high school and I had a great school year last year.  I did however go down to help my dad and his gf move in so that is why this message hasn't been posted sooner.  Thanks for the well wishes but as for now I am staying in the St. Louis area until after high school.  (p.s. the mom thing was about her comparing me to my dad and saying that I would do things exactly like he is doing and did.  It is a long story so I won't go into it)

I am moving to Florida this week so I will be off again for a while. I am moving because my mom is making me mad and I love it down there by the ocean. I always have loved the ocean since I was a little boy and now I want to live there, only 5 miles from the coast. I will be able to keep track of weather here in St. Louis, so don't worry about me leaving you all because I enjoy weather tracking with everyone here. Weather down there should be interesting though, with all the talk of possible hurricanes and pop storms every day. I shall keep you all informed on the possible hurricanes if and when they happen and get some pics up here from the storms. Wish me luck and I will be back on in a couple of weeks if not days.

Depressed Happy right now. Yesterday, my mom said no to me going up to my girl's house, which I should be very sad about that, but I am not. My mom told her mom that she wouldn't let me go up there because we have never met their family in real life yet, so she was just being protective, which is understandable. However, she said that I will be able to still see her this summer when she comes to Kansas City for a Skillsusa Competition in the last few days of June. I should be able to talk to her for at least a couple of minutes face to face, and it'll be a gift from God if it's for the whole time she's here (except when it's her groups turn to do the presentation about their project.) Heck it's already a gift from God as it is for me still having her in my life and an actual solid chance for me to see her even if it is for an instant. They also have this thing called Skillsusa Night which is a night from which all the participants (and I also think guest and parents as well) can go to an amusement park all for themselves for about 4 hours and ride the rides and what not and I will be doing that if I am allowed to. Finally things are starting to look up for us and I am not telling her my plans until the last minute as a surprise (which I know she will be expecting lol). Anyway thanks for all your support Weatherman and everyone else, these last few months have been hard on her and I, but now we will have to see where this thing leads us and my mom might even allow me to go up there sometime later this summer after she meets her ^-^.

*UPDATE*

Went to K.C. and we didn't meet, but I got within 150 ft of her, so that counts for something eh? Considering that we are 1280 miles apart when she is at her house, thats pretty darn good for being told not to even try to see her in K.C.

I won't be sleeping tonight and as of now my life has fallen apart.  The girl that I had counted on and thought would never lie to me has done so and she has fallen over another guy.  My guess is is that she broke up with me just because she wanted to be with him.....  I am not going up to her place anymore and I don't even want to talk to her...... *has emotional breakdown*  God has been cruel to me yet again, just like last year and now he has dealt the final and severe blow to me.  It is not his fault though, it is to make me stronger, but as of now my life is spinning out of control and is headed for a burning crash to the ground...... I still love her and I can't let her go ......

Wishes and Dreams - Keith Stobaugh 4/20/07 10:24 p.m

Wishes and dreams
Are they truly something to believe in
or are they deceiving
Tearing our lives apart

Wishes and dreams mean everything to me
They include you in everything that I want to do
Without you my wishes and dreams mean nothing
and I would start to fade away
Fade away into nothingness, sorrowfulness, sadness
Because I would be left with nothing to believe in

But, I wont fade away
I wont fade into this blackness
Of sadness
Because I believe in my wishes and dreams

With my wishes and dreams
I'll withstand all of hell
To hold your hand
Just for one last time
For all eternity

I'd withstand anything and everything
Just to be with you again

As days go by and time wears on
My heart will remain yours
Until I know that there is nothing that I can do
To get you back again
God help me if this takes a lifetime
But I believe that one day I will be
Yours and you will be mine

I won't fade away into this blackness
Of sadness
Because I believe in my wishes and dreams

I'll withstand all of hell
To hold your hand
Just for one last time
For all of eternity

I know I can withstand anything
To be with you again
As long as I believe in
My wishes and dreams

 

Revised April 23, 2007 at 6:54 p.m.

This is something I wrote today when I was in dispair. I deleted the blog with it in, but I shall repost for those that might feel the same way as I did earlier.

Love is nice while it last, but when its gone it feels like your heart is ripped right out of your body and is thrown on the ground of a crowded sidewalk. Everyone walks on it and your whole life starts to fall apart. Everything you've worked toward, everything you've sacrificed for them, everything you've done for them is gone in an instant, all up in smoke. Flames lapsing against the house of your soul, with the walls eventually falling, dreams dying, your whole world collapses around you, leaving you standing in the middle of nothing. It's as black as a night sky, except no stars are shining, no lights are burning. All you have is the burnt remains of your life, spirit, charred heart. The world you once loved has caved in around your broken, stepped on, heart and no one can save you. Only you can persevere through this and with God's mercy you can move on and live for another time and day.